January 18, 2021 - Life Goes On
Life goes on, whether we are ready or not. It is hard to believe that Jackie has been gone since January 2nd, that her funeral was as recent as January 6th. It is still so fresh and so raw. I wake up each day believing that she is going to answer that FaceTime call or respond to my text. But she doesn’t.
All of us who were close to her are still living with a fog over our thoughts. It is still so hard to comprehend how COVID could descend and be so deadly for some, and not for others. It was so fast. It was so relentless. It was formidable.
Rick and her girls are still grieving, we all are really. This will take time. But life doesn’t wait. The days continue to pass by., the calendar pages turn.
As I am writing this, I am sitting at Mayo Clinic awaiting my 3 month brain MRI. Jackie was with me the last time. Today, Jamie and Mason are with me. We are prayerful for clean scans and confirming evidence that my oral chemo cocktail continues to work. I have an appointment this Thursday with my Neural Oncologist for the results. Thus, we begin the wait.
I will also have my 3 month PET scan in a few weeks. Since that test is ordered from my Breast Oncologist, my schedule is not quite in synch. It just means more visits to Mayo. We are thankful for the short commute.
Health wise, I continue to take my meds daily. Jamie is a great nurse, hovering over me, making sure I am ok. I am still dealing with neuropathy, which we don’t expect much improvement. It is an odd feeling to lay down after a long day and not have much feeling in your feet except for numbness and tingling. But in the scheme of life, it is a minor inconvenience.
I have been experiencing headaches, but with the stress and heartache of the last month, it is of no surprise. We are hoping it is just stress and not more cancer tumors trying to join the party in my head.
Regardless of what is going on in the world, life goes on. If I’ve learned any lessons in the last few weeks, it has been to cherish every moment with your loved ones. Life goes on and while I am still alive, I plan to live it!